We
often
wondered
why
you
couldn't
say
or
pronounce
the
simplest
of
words.
Oh,
you
could
speak.
But
the
mumble
and
jumble
of
sounds
that
erupted
from
your
mouth
was
a
language
not
known
on
this
planet.
Your
excitement
at
times
was
overwhelming.
You
would
grab
us
by
the
hand,
you
would
point,
you
would
gesture,
you
would
turn
our
faces,
you
would
try
to
make
us
understand
thoughts
that
words
could
not
attach
themselves
to.
And
when
we
could
not
understand,
you
would
scream
and
scream,
and
scream.
You
would
be
tormented.
It
was
like
a
fire
was
consuming
you
from
head
to
toe.
But
it
could
never
consume
your
heart
and
soul.
And
then…and
then
we
received
the
news.
Autism
was
the
diagnosis.
Autism
–
I
rolled
the
word
around
in
my
mind.
I
repeated
it
over
and
over
like
it
was
the
bubonic
plague.
At
the
time
it
might
as
well
have
been.
It
was
as
if
darkness
descended
upon
us.
I
wept.
I
wept
for
the
thing
I
might
not
ever
be
able
to
share
with
you
–
my
love
for
language.
But
my
son,
we
come
from
a
people
not
too
keen
on
self
pity.
And
while
it's
ok
to
jump
back
on
the
horse
once
you
fall
off,
every
now
and
then
it's
better
to
take
the
bus.
And
then
one
night,
I
had
a
dream,
a
most
beautiful
dream.
You
see,
we
were
in
this
perfect
place
of
lovely
rolling
fields
consisting
of
the
greenest
grass
you
ever
saw.
I
was
there,
your
mom
was
there
in
all
her
radiant
beauty,
and
of
course
you
were
there.
The
temperature
was
a
perfect
sixty-eight.
Ok
maybe
seventy-two,
your
mom
is
a
little
cold
natured.
We
ran
up
and
down
those
gently
rolling
hills.
We
threw
a
ball
back
and
forth.
We
laughed,
we
frolicked
and
never
grew
weary.
But
the
one
thing
that
grabbed
me
and
shook
me
to
the
core
was
the
fact
that
we
did
not
speak.
I
awoke
and
looked
at
your
peaceful
smiling
face.
Then
I
began
to
understand
it
all.
Words
were
not
needed.
We
understood
each
other
perfectly.
Language
was
just
a
legend.
Miscommunication
was
a
thing
of
the
past.
The
inarticulate
speech
of
the
heart
was
comprehended.
Maybe
my
dear
son,
you're
at
a
point
even
the
greatest
of
writers
never
reach.
They
try
to
create
a
mood,
evoke
a
feeling,
put
forth
an
idea
that
goes
beyond
words.
You're
already
there.
Your
devoted
papa
still
has
a
long
way
to
go.
But
you,
my
son,
have
made
my
life
fuller
and
richer.
Life
is
good.
Note:
I
wrote
this
piece
about
15
years
ago.
It
is
about
my
son
who
has
almost
reached
adulthood
now.
Does
he
now
speak?
Yes,
he
does,
sometimes
too
much,
with
conversations
rambling,
disjointed,
and
full
of
non
sequiturs.
But
with
those
who
deal
with
the
challenges
of
autism,
this
type
of
communication
is
not
uncommon.
Because
autism
is
a
spectrum
disorder,
each
impacted
individual
has
their
own
unique
set
of
strengths
and
weaknesses.
My
son,
when
not
consumed
by
his
challenges
enjoys
cartooning.
A
career
path
for
him
involves
graphic
design.
Ironically,
however,
his
dream
job
is
to
become
a
voice
actor.
The
Centers
for
Disease
Control
report
that
autism
affects
an
estimated
1
in
44
children
in
the
United
States.
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