Sitting
am I
on the
edge
of a
small
lake
with
my
prosecco
and
orange
juice
as the
descending
tropical
sun
paints
the
sky in
magentas
and
blues.
From
time
to
time
there
is a
gentle
spray
of
rain.
Otherwise
it's
quiet
and
calm
and
forgetful.
Yet,
on
this
53rd
anniversary
of the
death
of my
friend,
Zev
Weiss,
it's
appropriate
and
meaningful
and
remorseful
to
republish
this
story.
To try
to
forget
what
cannot
be
forgotten.
Appropriate
and
not
forgotten
with
the
harrowing
horror
of
what
is
happening
now to
Israel,
what
is
once
again,
for
the
nth
time,
terrorizing
the
Jewish
people
everywhere,
reviving
the
nightmare,
unleashing
the
toxic
hatred
and
blinding
misinformation
that
has
plagued
this
planet
for
over
2000
years.
It is appropriate.
The Second Renunion: The Jew In The Box
He sat
propped
up
against
the
back
wall,
one of
his
legs
twisted
away
from
him
like a
puppet's
limb.
His
reddish
and
blue
face
was a
mask
scrambled
and
smoothed
by the
plastic
bag
over
his
head.
One of
his
hands
was
caught
in
torn
holes
at the
bottom
of the
bag as
if he
had
tried
to rip
it
off.
He was
asleep...
and
dead.
When
the
police
arrived
they
found
people
standing
quietly
around
the
tall
plexiglas
case
in
which
the
dead
man
was
found.
The
back
door
to the
case
was
locked
from
the
inside.
The
police
determined
that
this
was a
suicide.
In the
weeks
of
investigations
that
followed,
family,
friends,
officials
could
not
uncover
the
reasons,
the
motives
for
this
sad,
gruesome,
untimely
death.
But we
know,
you
and I.
We
know
that
an
hour
before
Mov
Weiss
killed
himself,
he had
a
visitor.
We
know
this.
We
know
that
in
1985,
Mov
was
one of
the
founders
in
Hamburg
of a
group
called,
"Remembrance."
Its
purpose
was to
offer
further
redemption,
a
salve
for
the
apparently
lingering
guilt
of
German
people
through
information
and
conversation.
Apparently
lingering
guilt.
The
group
established
a
small
museum
in the
north-end
of the
city
–
modest
yet
unintentionally
or
perhaps
intentionally
confrontational.
How
could
it be
otherwise?
We
know
this,
you
and I.
The
museum's
exhibits
consisted
of
photographs
and
descriptive
texts
of
German-Jewish
life
from
the
past
100
years,
and,
of
course,
from
the
Holocaust.
The
Jews
of
Germany...
they
considered
themselves
Germans
first
and
Jews,
second
and
third.
In the
face
of the
Nazi
terror,
they
proclaimed
and
insisted
they
were
Germans.
It was
a
proclamation
and
insistence
that
helped
exterminate
an
unimaginable
majority
of
German-Jews.
From
its
opening,
the
museum
received
a
growing
stream
of
visitors,
some
silent
in
their
response,
others
animated
and
disturbed.
And
then
there
was
the
Box.
It was
Mov's
idea.
A
tall,
plexiglas-enclosed
closet-like
booth
with
someone
sitting
inside
to
converse
with.
The
sign
read:
"Ask
Me and
I Will
Tell
You".
Mov
was
the
first
occupant
of the
brightly
lit,
transparent
information
chamber,
not
unlike
a cage
in a
zoo.
'Here
is a
Jew, a
healthy
young
specimen,
an
almost
extinct
species.
He is
friendly,
he is
intelligent,
he
speaks
our
language,
he can
answer
your
questions,
he
will
tell
you
the
truth
about
Jews,
Judaism,
Jewishness,
Jüdin.
Look
at
him,
study
him,
talk
to
him,
remember
him.'
Eight
hours
a day,
six
days a
week,
Sunday
through
Friday,
Mov
put
himself
on
display
as a
willing
correspondent.
In the
beginning,
he sat
in a
cane
chair
in the
center
of the
enclosure,
neatly
dressed
in
suit
and
tie.
Later,
he
dismissed
the
chair
and
stood
or
leaned
against
a
clear
wall.
And he
dismissed
the
tie,
sometimes,
the
jacket
as
well.
It was
exhausting.
He
began
to
have
difficulty
sleeping.
When
he
did,
he was
hammered
with
nightmares,
a
recurring
nightmare
that
he
couldn't
end.
On the
last
day of
his
life,
he was
exhausted.
Mov,
the
Jew in
the
box,
was
the
highlight
attraction
of the
museum.
Many
visitors
came
to see
him...
some
stopped
and
stared
at
him,
silently,
then
walked
away.
Others
talked
to him
and
even
asked
a few
questions.
Some
harassed
him
with
obscene
words
and
gestures.
But it
was
the
children
that
interested
him
most
and
brought
him
the
most
satisfaction.
It was
the
children.
One
asked:
"Why
does
everyone
hate
the
Jews?"
He
answered:
"Because
they
are
ignorant,
because
they
are
afraid,
because
they
are
jealous
and
that
makes
afraid?"
"Jealous?"
she
asked.
"Yes,"
he
said.
"They
see a
people,
the
Jews,
persecuted,
tortured,
murdered
and
yet,
the
Jewish
people
survive,
they
go on,
and
they
get
better."
The
little
girl
watched
him
for a
moment
and
then
asked:
"Were
you
tortured?"
He
answered:
"No.
But my
people
were,
and in
a way,
I am,
because
I feel
what
they
feel."
She
nodded
and
smiled
and
that
was
Mov's
best
reward
for
being
in a
cage,
on
display.
On
this
last
day,
he was
exhausted.
He was
sitting
on the
floor
of the
box
drinking
water
from a
camper's
cup
which
he
kept
in a
corner,
when
the
guard
came
to say
that
it was
an
hour
until
closing
and
there
was no
one
else
in the
museum.
Mov
told
him it
was
all
right
if he
wanted
to
leave
early
and
that
he
would
lock
up.
Mov
closed
his
eyes
and
remembered
it was
Friday.
He was
relieved
that
he had
a day
off to
enjoy.
As Mov
sat
there,
a man
appeared,
an old
man
with
slicked
down
blonde-white
hair,
an old
handsome
man
with
chiseled
features,
an old
well-dressed
man
wearing
a
raincoat.
He
walked
to the
front
of the
box
and
leaned
on his
umbrella.
Mov
didn't
notice
him at
first.
He was
startled
when
he
opened
his
eyes.
The old man smiled and asked: "Are you the son of Zev Weiss?"
"Yes." Mov answered.
"I knew your father. I knew him well. We worked together during the war."
"You were in the same... camp?"
"Not
just
one.
We
moved
around
a
great
deal.
He was
my
research
assistant."
Mov slowly rose to his feet. "Research... assistant?"
"Yes."
Mov
moved
slowly
to the
front,
transparent
wall
of the
box.
"You
were a
prisoner
in a
Nazi
camp
and
you
did
research?
"No,
I
wasn't
a
prisoner.
I
worked
there.
I did
research
and
your
father
assisted
me. I
was
his
mentor.
I met
your
father
when
he was
19. He
was a
brilliant
medical
student.
When
they
corralled
him
and
shipped
him to
a
labor
camp,
I
found
him
and
had
him
assigned
to me.
I
think
I
saved
his
life."
As the
old
man
smiled
at him
again,
Mov
pressed
his
face
and
hands
against
the
wall
and
whispered:
"You're
Hoeffler."
Mov
began
to
back
away:
"You're
one of
the
black
Doctors,
one of
the
beasts
of..."
"No,
I
wasn't
a
doctor,
I was
a
scientist.
Your
father
and I
worked
together
for
nearly
five
years.
The
conditions
were
difficult
but we
managed
to do
some
valuable
work
and
also...
some
not-too
valuable
work."
Mov
tried
to
speak
as
calmly
as
possible,
his
hands
trembling:
"Why
are
you
free?
Why
are
you
walking
around?
Why
are
you
still
alive?"
"I
met
your
father
again
after
the
war in
Jerusalem
in
1948.
They
sent
me
down
there
to be
with
the
Mufti
in
their
fight
against
the
Zionists."
Mov struggled: "They?... who's they?"
"I
was an
advisor
in
Palestine,
an
information
specialist.
Your
father
was
there
then,
he had
joined
a
little,
violent
gang,
the
Irgun.
The
British
captured
him
and
turned
him
over
to us.
I had
to
interrogate
him.
He was
as
surprised
to see
me as
I was
him.
It was
a
surprising
reunion.
He
told
you
about
this,
didn't
he?"
Mov
had
moved
to the
back
wall
and
pressed
his
back
hard
against
it as
he
tried
to
find
the
small
inset
handle
that
unlocked
the
door.
"I'm afraid we had to torture him a bit. He told you, didn't he?"
Mov exploded and lunged to the front wall, screaming: "Why are you
afraid? That was your 'research' wasn't it?"
The
old
man
didn't
flinch:
"You
know,
your
father
told
me an
interesting
story
when
we
talked
then."
Mov closed his eyes. His hands balled into tight fists.
The
old
man
said:
"He
told
me
that
during
the
last
months
of the
war
when I
had to
leave
the
country,
he was
shipped
back
to
Auschwitz.
When
the
soldiers
came
and
opened
the
camp,
he was
nearly
starving
and
sick
but
obsessed
with
finding
a
newspaper,
any
current
newspaper.
He
told
me he
desperately
needed
to
read
about
what
was
happening
outside.
He
told
me he
finally
found
a
French
soldier
who
had a
newspaper
that
was
only a
few
days
old.
He
told
me he
fell
to the
ground
and
began
to
scour
the
pages
for
news
of a
world
congress
which
he
believed
was
meeting.
He
believed
that
everyone
was in
their
home
glued
to
their
radios.
The
buses
had
stopped
running,
the
elevators,
everyone
was
listening
to the
congress,
listening
to
hear
it say
–
'we're
at the
end,
we've
crossed
the
line,
we're
at the
bottom,
everything
must
change,
this
can
never
happen
again'.
Of
course,
he
found
nothing,
there
was no
congress,
people
were
not
listening
to
anything,
they
were
going
about
their
business,
salvaging
their
lives,
trying
to
forget.
Are
you
all
right?"
Mov
had
sunk
to the
floor.
There
were
tears
streaming
down
his
face.
He
pounded
on the
plexiglas
with
the
flats
of his
hands.
The
old
man
said:
"He
died
didn't
he, in
'70...
'72?
I'm
amazed
he
survived
that
long.
Long
enough
to
have a
family,
long
enough
to
bring
you
into
this
world,
long
enough
to
pass
on his
memories.
He saw
everything
I saw.
he did
everything
I
did."
The
old
man
took
off
his
rain
coat,
draped
it
carefully
on his
arm
and
laid
his
umbrella
over
it.
Mov,
now on
his
knees,
stared
at
him:
"You
are a
liar!
You're
a
murderer,
you're
a
horror-maker,
you
are a
liar!
My
father
was
haunted
by the
memory
of
you,
by
what
you
did,
by
what
he saw
you
do."
The
old
man
said:
"Your
father
was
haunted
by
himself.
He
could
never
reconcile
his
logical
thoughts
with
his
perception
of the
reality
around
him.
That
was
his
nightmare,
that
was..."
Mov,
now
standing,
stared
at
him:
"How
calm
you
are.
How
nonchalantly
you
speak
about
the
horror
of
murder
of
men...
and
women...
and
children.
Empty,
without
any
feeling.
How
dead
you
are."
The old man said: "Did your father tell you what he learned from me?"
"Yes."
"And did you learn from him?"
"Yes."
"Did
he
tell
you
that
Germany
is
poisoned,
its
people
and
its
culture?
They
carry
a
plague,
a
toxin
like a
virus
in
every
cell,
in
their
bones,
and
language
and
music.
They
pass
it on
from
generation
to
generation.
It's
been
that
way
for
100s
of
years.
And
when
the
small-brained
Nazi
thugs
grabbed
Germany
in the
1930's,
it
flourished
like
the
black
plague
of the
Middle
Ages.
And
they
spread
that
virus
down
into
the
Arab
world,
down
into
the
South
American
world.
They
spread
it
everywhere.
Stalin
was
right,
Germany
should
have
been
broken
up
into
small
pieces
and
scattered
throughout
Europe,
never
to
allow
the
country
to
emerge
again.
Did he
tell
you
that?"
"Yes."
"Did
he
tell
you
that
what
they
did in
the
camps
had
nothing
to do
with
religion
or
ideology?
It had
to do
with
the
freedom
of
power.
They
were
free
to do
it, so
they
did
it.
Did he
tell
you
that?"
"Yes."
"Did
he
tell
you
that I
had
the
freedom,
the
power
to do
what I
did,
so I
did
it?
Did he
tell
you
that?"
"Yes."
"Then
you
know
that
what
you do
here
in
this
living
museum
makes
no
difference.
The
plague
will
rise
again,
and
you
will
know
it."
Mov
pounded
on the
wall:
"I'll
hunt
you,
I'll
get
people
together
and we
will
hunt
you.
We'll
drag
you
into
the
light
and
show
you
for
the
black
beast
you
are."
The
old
man
began
to
walk
away.
Then
he
stopped
and
turned
toward
Mov:
"No,
you
will
hunt...
you.
You'll
haunt
yourself
as
your
father
did."
He turned and walked away. Mov stared after him.
Mov
was
buried
next
to his
father.
We
know,
you
and I,
that
his
gravestone
reads:
"I
am my
Father's
Keeper."
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